verklempt

Jan. 19th, 2017 09:49 pm
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My ability to read serious political news remains low, especially now I've started reading for my area exams, but these two things made me tear up.
Obama's goodbye letter
RESISTANCE POSTERS OF AMAZING (including some made by the artist of Obama's "Hope" poster)

I'll be marathon-dancing off my Trumperdink feels this weekend. This era is ending; all that's left is to center and sustain.

i'm just gonna leave this here

Jan. 18th, 2017 12:43 pm
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To Obama With Love, and Hate, and Desperation is a somewhat questionable title but a really interesting read. I had never thought about the doings in the White House mailroom before, but reading this, I think it's going to be one of many legacies that I'll be sad to see come to an end.
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You put on some new pants. I put
on some sunlight. I put on a coyote. You
put on a bigger coyote. You put on all
of the coyotes! You put on the sand as it flies
beneath your incredible little paws. I put on
rain not reaching the desert. You put on how we
feel sad after this. You put on the sadness. You
put on methods for dealing with it. The sadness tries
to put you on but you say No! You wrestle
the sadness to the ground. You are big and need
large wings. You put on the large wings. You are still
a coyote. You put on the howling. You put on
things that howl back. There is nothing
you won’t put on. You put on the darkness.
You put on some stars and even what
is between them. You put on the moon. The moon
that shines! You put on how we want
to stay here! You put on how we forget where
we were before. You put on the earth how
it cracks. You put on its face when it sees us.
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The Unquarried Blue of Those Depths Is All But Blinding
by Ashley Anna McHugh

for John Fogelman

There are some things we just don't talk about--
Not even in the morning, when we're waking,
When your calloused fingers tentatively walk
The slope of my waist:
                                How love's a rust-worn boat,
Abandoned at the dock--and who could doubt
Waves lick their teeth, eyeing its hull? We're taking
Our wreckage as a promise, so we don't talk.
We wet the tired oars, tide drawing us out.

We understand there's nothing to be said.
Both of us know the dangers of this sea,
Warned by the tide-worn driftwood of our pasts--.
But we've already strayed from the harbor. We thread
A slow wake though the water--then silently,
We start to row, and will for as long as this lasts.

Oh, Johnny Weir

Jan. 16th, 2017 03:52 pm
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So, [twitter.com profile] curiousflowers and I are done, I think, with the first season of Be Good Johnny Weir and I've developed a wealth of headcanons based on the show, because of course I have.

discipline )

gayness )

Russia )

respect )

sex )

competing urges

Jan. 13th, 2017 04:37 pm
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Finished an old Dragon Age: Origins game yesterday, which is the first one where I persuaded my way into Cousland/Alistair royal power couple, almost entirely because I wanted to see Alistair's script at the beginning of Awakening if you're married and queen. Despite my completist urges about this game (ALL the origin stories! ALL the character types! ALL the fighting styles!), there are still a number of narrative choices I have trouble making because a) I can't turn my personal ethics off long enough to play through the resulting consequences, and b) I can't bring my character to act like a complete asshole. (Yes it's a game universe, but what's the point of spending so much time on a character that I don't even like?)

... Am I the only one who has these problems? *g*

teach us how to say goodbye

Jan. 12th, 2017 01:33 pm
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Still can't bring myself to watch President Obama's farewell speech, though I saw clips of him talking about Michelle (with Malia trying to keep it together) making the rounds on youtube. And I did watch the Hamilton crew's White House performance of One Last Time, which, augh, is managing to give me feels even without having watched/listened to Hamilton.

Whatever else there is to say about President Obama- and there's a lot- he knows how to carry hope, and grace, and love.

An update

Jan. 12th, 2017 10:16 am
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Just a brief post to say Happy New Year and apologise for the radio silence here! I’ve been travelling, as you’ll have seen if you follow me on Instagram or Facebook, and I’ve also been working on my book.

This is a follow-up to Sorcerer to the Crown and it’s not going to be out before 2018, notwithstanding reports elsewhere (including by me /o\) that it was due out this year. Sorry! The delay is entirely my fault, but I am working steadily on it and it will get done. I’ll post about the details when I can.

Till then, there’s not likely to be too much activity on this blog, though I do plan to start posting more about writing and publishing and all that sort of thing once I’ve got the MS in a state I’m reasonably satisfied with. Consider it a fallow period — I gotta build up my nitrates!

Mirrored from Zen Cho.

adventures with French

Jan. 11th, 2017 06:06 pm
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[personal profile] littlebutfierce asked about my adventures with French, which I have to say are not exactly... progressing, lol. I spend most of my time in my monolingual school bubble, which means I'm not used to switching gears outside it, which restricts my listening comprehension and vocab more than they otherwise would be (judging by my experiences in Chinese-speaking environments). My ability to parse the Quebec accent is maybe marginally better when my brain flips the switch, but I still can't understand most of what dance-buddy S is saying. To be fair, he's from rural Quebec, so his accent is more pronounced than most other people's I've encountered. I don't think my reading comprehension has deteriorated super badly, as I've had no trouble grading assignments written in French or reading emails or fb group messages with Francophone friends. Text is more forgiving for me, in French- I'm better at working out meanings through context through reading than listening. It's completely different than Chinese, in that sense, where illiteracy means I'm always working at comprehension the other way around.

In terms of French news/podcast-type listening sources, my adventures are basically non-ventures, alas. I've never found a good way to integrate those into my daily routine, and I try to avoid youtube spiraling for reasons of productivity, but music seems like it would be more promising? I'd appreciate any song/artist recs people have!

things to listen to

Jan. 11th, 2017 09:32 am
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So, I generally can't do podcasts or podfic, that's been true for several years. There's just this thing where they don't fit into my life and I find them annoying if I do listen to them. If I'm at home doing chores I'd rather have some kind of video on, if I'm driving I'd rather have music, or live radio, if I'm reading fic before bed I'd much rather be actually reading it.

But recently two things happened at the same time. My car is nearly a decade old, and the radio it came with was a built-in thing that local garages don't fix anymore. It started acting up a few years ago, making the sound difficult to adjust, switching between radio stations randomly, and of course refusing to play anything but original music CDs (no MP3s at all), which are super expensive and cumbersome to make, for me. There was a time when I used my friend A's computer to burn music CDs for myself every once in a while, but then she moved to Canada, so.

Anyway, recently things have gotten worse. Last week the radio in my car died completely, not playing any CDs at all and not really letting me set radio stations or adjust volume. Around this time my parents offered to pay to have it replaced as a birthday present (I always considered it a superfluous expense. I mean the last estimate I got was for over 200$ so, um, no.) but that's going to take time (need to find a place that actually does this for my type of car.)

At the same time [personal profile] roga, podcast enthusiast, was like "I have found the thing that will finally get you to listen to podcasts". And she was correct! Partially because I desperately needed something to listen to on my commute to and from work, lol.

So, that podcast was Fruit, produced by Issa Rae. Fruit is basically a professionally made radio play in short installments. I'm told not all podcasts are of this quality, but this one has professional voice actors and sound quality and really, really great writing. I can't stress that enough.

Fruit is the story of a professional football player who starts exploring his own bisexuality, just as his career starts to take off and he becomes ever more visible to the public. I enjoyed the first season more than the second, but they were both good and I was really sad when I was done with all the episodes and there was no more story to listen to. I don't want give any spoilers, but I would definitely read fic about these characters for yuletide. A lot of feels were had.

Anyway, when I was done with Fruit my car stereo was still not fixed! So I started fishing around for more stuff. Remember that I've bounced off of every podcast and format I'd tried in years past, so finding something I'd actually enjoy was really hard. So far I've settled on something I've seen recced on tumblr, The Bright Sessions.

TBS are recordings of meeting a psychologist (Dr. Bright) has with several recurring patients, all of them possessing superpowers. I am... very very weak for this trope, so I assumed I'd enjoy this format, and I have been. Even though it's less well written than Fruit, I think (the writing is just a little less sophisticated) and again doesn't have the same level of professional production (TBS is still professionally recorded! But Fruit is just its own golden standard).

But I'm halfway through S1 and enjoying it, listening to an episode on my way to work and an episode on my way home. So, I definitely recommend both of these, if you're into podcasts or if you aren't into podcasts, as I was, but are willing to give them one last try.

*

In other news, I wrote another poem. /o\ (The last poem I wrote ended up getting published, so that's not stressful at all.) I'm currently thinking of submitting it (if only to get that sweet feeling of rejection going again) but I could really use a few people to look it over first and let me know if it's really done?

So, if you enjoy blank verse poetry in general and would be willing to look this over, let me know?

happily sore

Jan. 8th, 2017 04:54 pm
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Went to a dance social last night for the first time in... about 2 months? It was a great party and I spent a long time dancing with practice-partner S (we've been on practice-hiatus for a few months, but we tentatively agreed to start again :D), as well as a couple of people visiting from elsewhere in Quebec. I've missed my zoukers a lot, but damn, I need to get back in shape. Time to see if I can get into the habit of doing pilates workouts at home a couple times a week.

A few of you have asked me to talk about dance and I think it might be a bit much to try to combine all of those posts into one. [personal profile] jhameia's question about muscle development feels apropos today, since I woke up sore in my everything. Honestly, muscles are a thing that I never particularly cared about- I'm not the biggest exercise junkie, and I started dancing because it was fun and not because I wanted to have great abs or whatever- but the more I learned, the more I started to realize how valuable the muscle training aspect is, even if I'm still not particularly good at it outside of dance contexts.

babble )

Er, looking at this, my response might miss the mark on things you wanted to know, but if you have further questions feel free to ask! :P

birthday

Jan. 8th, 2017 03:18 pm
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[personal profile] marina
Today is my birthday!

I don't really have anything to say, and I don't have time to write any of the posts I wanna write (oh, Johnny Weir), but.

There was chocolate cake at work, and presents and a faily coworker who was handled pretty well by my other coworkers, which was nice, and texts and tweets and emails, even DW PMs, and probably Facebook messages though I haven't checked FB yet (the fact that I'm rarely on FB is why I suspect I got so many messages of other kinds lol).

I'm always a little anxious on my birthday, and sort of not having panic attacks around this time has been a labor of over a decade, and every year I consciously try to do better and every year it gets a little easier, I think. But. I've accepted that I'll probably always have this little well of anxiety around this time.

For various reasons, around my birthday is when every anxiety I've ever had about not being social enough or not having enough friends or whatever comes around and becomes multiplied by a billion. Thoughts I haven't had in, again, like a decade, persist around this particular day.

I know other people have anxieties around their birthdays, so on this occasion let me share one particular moment that was, I think, instrumental and the first brick in a long road to reclaiming this day, for me.

One of my half-sisters is an extrovert and a general ball of sunshine and is amazingly, beautifully the opposite of everything I am. (My other half-sister, on the other hand, is a carbon copy of me, which is incredibly disturbing.)

She taught me so much the first time I met her. She was just a kid, and I was trying to teach her something every day, but at the same time having a sister who was so profoundly different, with who I got to spend so much time, was transformative.

The day she turned 13 I watched her go about her life - go to school, spend time with her family, go to activities. Where I was used to being awkward on my birthday, never sure how to behave, my sister just started every conversation she had that day with a new person by smiling and saying "it's my birthday!" and clapping her hands.

And the thing is, every time she did that, regardless of who the person was, they smiled back and said "yay, happy birthday!" and clapped along with her. And that was it. They had that brief moment of celebration, and then the conversation moved on, and watching that was life-altering for me. I don't know why, I could give a billion reasons, but something about it was just... such a simple social script, that accomplished everything she wanted to accomplish and was not heavy or cumbersome.

So, ever since then I have a habit of just... telling people it's my birthday. Not wait for them to ask or notice, or wait for it to come up in conversation, or stress about their reactions. Just... say the words. At first it used to be like ripping off a bandaid, but very quickly it became what it was for my half-sister: just a way to share joy.

So, it's my birthday :) It's been a nice trip around the sun, and I hope to complete many more of them.

Making a Fist by Naomi Shihab Nye

Jan. 7th, 2017 04:53 pm
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For the first time, on the road north of Tampico,
I felt the life sliding out of me,
a drum in the desert, harder and harder to hear.
I was seven, I lay in the car
watching palm trees swirl a sickening pattern past the glass.
My stomach was a melon split wide inside my skin.

“How do you know if you are going to die?”
I begged my mother.
We had been traveling for days.
With strange confidence she answered,
“When you can no longer make a fist.”

Years later I smile to think of that journey,
the borders we must cross separately,
stamped with our unanswerable woes.
I who did not die, who am still living,
still lying in the backseat behind all my questions,
clenching and opening one small hand.

academic mic-drop, say what!

Jan. 7th, 2017 02:02 pm
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Having updated some of my tags and icons, I've also edited access/subscriptions, which I've been neglecting for... years, oops. >.> This was mostly an exercise in dropping subscriptions to those who seem to have abandoned their journals or whom I haven't interacted with in years, but I thought I'd post an FYI, in case you're one of the people who suddenly got an add notification and were wondering why.

Today has been a day where academic readings have actually been entertaining, and since an open access file seems to be available, I thought I'd post a link: Burt & Simons, 2014- Pulling back the curtain on heritability studies: Biosocial criminology in the post-genomic era. As I said elsenet, this is a comprehensive academic rant on behavioral genetics that I'm too incoherent to make myself. It also includes probably the most entertaining conclusion paragraph that I've read to date:
We have argued that there is compelling evidence that heritability studies are methodologically flawed, especially for complex social behaviors such as crime. We have argued also that heritability studies are based on an oversimplified and incorrect model of gene function and that the goal of partitioning genetic versus environmental influences on variance in phenotypes is biologically unsound. We therefore recommend an end to heritability studies in criminology. Moreover, given the many flaws in heritability studies, we also call for an end to the use of the oft-repeated version of the phrase: “We know from a wealth of behavioral genetic studies that the heritability of [insert crime or related phenotype] is roughly 50 percent.” Based on the arguments and research discussed in this article, it is apparent that we unequivocally do not know this to be the case. Furthermore, no amount of quantitative genetic research can establish the validity of such heritability estimates or their putative support for the irrelevance of shared environmental factors. Technically flawed and conceptually unsound models—no matter how often published or repeated—do not by virtue of their numbers make for sound evidence.

(Burn much? *g*)

heartsplosion

Jan. 6th, 2017 08:55 pm
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[personal profile] schneefink asked for my ~5 favorite scenes in Nirvana in Fire/Lang Ya Bang, so naturally I couldn't resist the temptation to rewatch! It's so good that I'll have to subdivide by the overall plot arc, I think. :D Attempting to limit spoilers so I won't go on too long, but here's part 1: top 5 scenes, eps 1-10 )
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