1. This weekend I watched a production of Die Bajadere
, a Kalman operetta, performed by a Hungarian cast, in Hungarian, at the Israeli Opera. I enjoyed it a lot - Kalman's music was wonderful as usual, the performance was top notch, and even though we had the cheapest seats possible the viewing experience was also pretty great because the Israeli Opera has a really great theater.
I was expecting there to be orientalist fail - the story is about an Indian prince (and secretly accomplished composer) who falls in love with a Parisian singer - but I didn't expect the story to be quite so critical of the British involvement in/with India. The operetta opened in 1921 in Vienna and I wonder how mainstream harsh criticism of the British was at that time/place? Certainly it was absent in the mainstream of the English language cultural texts of that time. Here the British are basically shown to be exploitative villains throughout, and there's no condescension of the Indian characters/implication that India needs Britain or has ever benefited from British involvement. It felt remarkably... modern. I'm sure a lot of it had to do with the production and their deliberate effort to tone down the fail but it was still surprising considering this operetta is nearly 100 years old.
2. So, I've had a cold for like a month. Yesterday was the first time when I was able to take a shower (and wash my hair!) and not wake up extra sick the next day. \\\o/// it was super great. I would say that this means I can start going on walks again after work and slowly unfucking my health situation (multiple chronic injuries don't lend themselves well to staying indoors a lot) but pfft you think the universe wants to give me a break? It does not. I have one single pair of comfortable, warm, rain-proof boots that I bought in Germany, and they've started tearing. Until I get them fixed (which will hopefully happen? But not before next week) I can't afford any extra usage that would damage them more, and if I go walking in sneackers I'll get sick again in two seconds.
If you're asking - but Marina, don't you have other winter shoes you could wear? The answer is: I recently lost one pair of light boots because they got torn so badly they were beyond fixing, and I can't find the other pair of boots, which I originally brought with me to travel in Germany. I've looked everywhere, no luck so far.
3. The other day I had such a vivid dream of getting an apartment, oh my god. It was detailed - my roommate, my room, the exact price, the negotiation, the amount of light from the windows, everything. I remember the sense of relief that I finally, finally, have somewhere to live. And then I woke up.
Related to this, it seems the place where I was keeping my stuff in storage is no longer going to be available in a few weeks. If I don't find a place by then I'll... I have no fucking idea.
4. Relatedly? Stuff with grad school has gotten more dire. I have about two weeks to make a final plea for things, which will involve a lot of work but ultimately won't in any way be up to me, or I can kiss my thesis goodbye. And even if it works, ughhh. Just. Everything is a stressful mess.
5. Also apparently my mom got some very, very worrying health news. We'll know more after tonight but... she's been a mess. This weekend over lunch she was crying and talking about when my dad and I would be left on our own. It's just... so much stress to handle.
6. I was so tired this weekend. Let me explain to you how tired work, grad school and apartment hunting while being sick
has made me: instead of leaving my parents' at 5pm as I'd planned, I collapsed and slept for like two hours. I, whose body is incapable of napping unless all systems are in a dire state. I woke up with a headache.
7. I want to say that the only way out of this dark tunnel is through, but the truth is IDK what'll be left of me, where I'll be, by the time it's over. I will probably be alive two months from now. The rest of it is kind of up in the air.
8. Let's try to focus on some good things: I had delicious, delicious food this weekend and have more of said food waiting for me at home. I'm going to Amsterdam with friends in April. were_duck
might start reading Lymond and/or Captive Prince soon. Temperatures are supposed to drop again later this week but for now, for today, there's sun, and the kind of cold I can live with.